I finished up a layout I've had sitting in my "scrap this" pile for a few months. Why is that being a mom of 4, 3 of them in school, 1 of them with Encopresis, 1 of them potty training, 1 of them in Cub Scouts, 1 of them in Young Women & orchestra makes a mom forget who she is?? Finding a balance is so hard right now. I keep telling myself that one day they will all be adults & I will be grateful for the personal sacrafices I am making so that they can have a mom that has time for them now. In making those sacrafices I have felt like I have lost my identity in some way. I used to love to do certain things but now I just don't have time for them. I'm sure you moms out there know exactly what I'm talking about. I need a happy medium - a time each day set aside just for me to do whatever it is I want & no one can interrupt me to help them go potty, get a snack or pop their favorite movie into the VCR (yes, we still have one). I desperately need me time.
Somehow I managed to finish this layout, am almost done with a 2nd, & have a 3rd started. This is something I used to do all the time. But I've lost that spark. I want it back. I need it back. This is going to be a long journey for me & I am hoping by the end I will know exactly what my spark is, how to maintain it & what it is I want to do with my life. (I am 32 years old. Shouldn't I have already figured all this out?? Geesh.)
So I hope you don't mind but occasionally I will share the triumphs & failures of my path to rediscovering me & my artistic self.
Out of curiosity - what is your spark?? what's that thing you love to do that keeps you ticking & still allows you to have time to be a good mom, wife, friend??