It's Tuesday night. In less than 24 hours, I will be uterus free. I know I should be nervous, but I'm not. No, I do not at all enjoy surgery but this has been a long time coming. And I am quite confident in my doctor. So that helps. While I sit here on the couch, doing nothing but waiting to my for my next trip to the bathroom (anyone who has done a clean out prep knows just what I'm talking about), I was thinking about what an amazing blessing it is that I have four children. They are the heartbeat of my life. And now childbearing is an experience is one I will never have again. It brings mixed feelings. When Noah turned 2, I thought about how nice it would be to have another Buis baby. Just one last little one to join our family. But I knew deep in my heart that our family was complete and my time for having babies was done. That, and my doctor told me that if I attempted another pregnancy, my uterus would not tolerate it and it could very well be the end of me and the baby. I listened, of course.
Before I go, I thought I'd share some recent little somethings with you......
|HEAR| my children telling stories of their first day of school adventures around the dinner table.
|TASTE| apple juice - the only drink that seems appealing to me while I am on a clear liquid pre-surgery diet.
|TOUCH| fabric. Oh how I love fabric! I am making new curtains soon. (hint: there's a peek above)
|SMELL| apple cinnamon air fresheners making my home smell Fall-ish.
|SEE| Tatum reading books like a pro to anyone who will listen - a huge improvement over last year.
|FEEL| grateful for the sweet people in my life. There is nothing like family and good friends (whom I miss very much).