little somethings

It's Tuesday night.  In less than 24 hours, I will be uterus free.  I know I should be nervous, but I'm not. No, I do not at all enjoy surgery but this has been a long time coming.  And I am quite confident in my doctor.  So that helps.  While I sit here on the couch, doing nothing but waiting to my for my next trip to the bathroom (anyone who has done a clean out prep knows just what I'm talking about), I was thinking about what an amazing blessing it is that I have four children.  They are the heartbeat of my life.  And now childbearing is an experience is one I will never have again.  It brings mixed feelings.  When Noah turned 2, I thought about how nice it would be to have another Buis baby.  Just one last little one to join our family.  But I knew deep in my heart that our family was complete and my time for having babies was done.  That, and my doctor told me that if I attempted another pregnancy, my uterus would not tolerate it and it could very well be the end of me and the baby.  I listened, of course.



Before I go, I thought I'd share some recent little somethings with you......

|HEAR|  my children telling stories of their first day of school adventures around the dinner table.

|TASTE| apple juice - the only drink that seems appealing to me while I am on a clear liquid pre-surgery diet.

|TOUCH| fabric.  Oh how I love fabric!  I am making new curtains soon.  (hint: there's a peek above)

|SMELL| apple cinnamon air fresheners making my home smell Fall-ish.

|SEE| Tatum reading books like a pro to anyone who will listen - a huge improvement over last year.

|FEEL| grateful for the sweet people in my life.  There is nothing like family and good friends (whom I miss very much).

xo,
--Anna